2008年12月10日星期三

recently (tired+exhausted)

it been quite tough tis few week
start frm last last week

malaysian study paper project
rushing 2 do da malaysian study paper work, do til morning 3-4,
there been a lot of problem occur
do the project then only found tat v go wrong direction
do again and finally done but i din save n finally james need 2 do it again,
very paiseh vif him

graphic assignment
rushing 2 do assignment of graphic(although tis is my interest, but it is quite tired after all )
this can be consider the most attractive course 4 me,
juz drawing it very clean n clear is a tiring thing
and the quetion is nt clear
make us do many tim...
but i vil keep in love vif it!!!!

malaysian study exam
i then malaysian study exam(go there tikam saja),
haha~~~~~(i even stim stim during da exam, wakaka)
all mcq, study liao like no study
although 1 chapter but i think oso hard 2 score
duno wer can get da result, but hope i can get a quite gud result
(but wat i juz noe tat da result of other faculty cum out dee, seems nt veryt gud ler,
haiya~~ watever lar, as long as pass)

selangor (出外景)
then go selangor coursemate house 2 take video(it can consider a nice trip)
it is a second part of malaysian study project.
it is about presentation, v are doing a drama
i am nt da main hero in da drama, i am a kalefei + camera man + video editing, haha~~
i would like 2 cal myself a 制作人
wakaka
lion house is very crowded all da tim
juz like cny
here are sum foto

vif da indian gal, banana gal
v get 友情客串 frm lion nieceour story is an indian dancing teacher, but seems like an indian dancing student~~~~nice color rite???
i found tat i really interested in this kind of art job~~~~
to get a very beautiful scene, i decided to get higher but seems tat it is nt enough, so i decided 2 get higher n higheri like 2 climb, it quite a long time din climb anything after my scouting life
tis is wat i get frm da tree, nice ler???duno why this 2 main character so happycontinue taking aniother scenehard work~~~ hard work~~~~

whenever v take video at da playground, many kepo aunty n uncle juz wander around, very like 2 抢镜头
after a morning of hard work, need 2 eat liao lor
eating bak kut teh, 4get 2 take foto be4 eat, nw juz left sum nia
biang ~~~ biang ~~~~ biang~~~~~
v juz follow wat da little boy do
oya~~~
be4 i 4get, there is a china polictician joining us in our drama
a china politician is supervision our work
she seems nt very happy ler......(over budget)
seems nt very gud ler.....
finally she satisfy dee ^.^
(lion, if u c, dun kill me lar, juz kidding lar)

our bride and groom is going 2 marry lor
wakaka
soli ya, bz lar, u noe lar big business

after a whole day work, our actor vif their costume
after bath and all
bye and v vil mizz all this~~~


p/s(Caution!!! the following maybe hurting sum1, read if u nt scared)
but during the trip i found out sumting
my mum alwaz tell me tat north malaysia ppl all oso rich rich belaka
n she worry me tat i vil influence by those rich ppl, becum very realistik
but be4 tat i din feel, after this trip i finally realise tat v really hav a gap between
i nt meaning tat my frenz frm south malaysia are realistic but juz our family background are quite far
how i noe??
i visit a frenz house tat tim
her house damn big n sui, i eel shocked and it is sumting like da taiwan drama hero, heroin house, but acoording my frenz tis is nt very big....
then i shocked
and i silent and juz listen 2 their conversation
on da way bec i was thinking, yea, there are alwaz gap betweeen human
no matter how gud are you, there juz a gap, juz when v hav fun v vil temporarily 4get it
after all it cum bec dee
-时间并不能冲淡事情,它只能沉淀事情,只要突然来一阵风,就会打乱之前沉淀的事情,之前一切的一切会再次重新袭击你,那种痛苦,悲伤,感觉会再次涌出来,就像参杂着沙的水,时间可以让沙沉淀,水恢复清澈,但只要一下子打翻了,那污浊的水又会出现-
maybe is a kind of humble(自卑) gua, i think tat i am not frm da standard as my frenz
maybe tis is wat v call 木门对木门,铁门对铁门
maybe tis a test 4 me, testing me how 2 balance
o maybe is a torture 4 me, torture me 4 my stuborn 2 go private university~~~
o maybe, i am too sensitive

believe it o nt, i am not talking u nt gud, juz maybe is my own problem

2008年11月30日星期日

I am so sorry to.......

i cook my lunch juz nw
its all food i took frm my home
gt pork, sambal salted fish
then i decided to cook rice
how ever, i am s sorry to
because i actually wana cook u into
but i cook u into sumting between
and this
but dun sad as u becum
although
is wat i wan
but finally make u into
my special recipe
salted fish pork sambal porridege
wakaka
enjoy eaten by me ya.

2008年11月24日星期一

我失败了。。。。。

我不是一个无私的人
虽然我想,试着,尽力去当一个无私的人,但我还是失败了
可能十年后,二十年后,或者三十年后的某天,我会是个无私的人
但现在的我,绝对不是的

一直以为我是可以做到的
学佛了这么多年,我还是做不到这一点,真得满愧疚的
有人告诉我,人一直都自私的
以前的人是这样,现在的人是这样,未来的人也是这样的
只是我不明白为什么有些人非要激起我压抑已久的私心呢??


我不是一个坦率的人
虽然我想,试着,尽力去当一个坦率的人,但我还是失败了
可能十年后,二十年后,或者三十年后的某天,我会是个坦率的人
但现在的我,绝对不是的

一直以为我可以是个很坦率的人
可以大声地说-“不,我不想”
虽然心里想的是-“我不要”
但说出来的是-“好吧”
“我不要” 不等于 “好吧”
这点我当然知道,也知道他们甚至是对立的
但在我的人生中,他们好像已经划上等号了

我不想当一个喜欢在人背后将别人坏话的人
虽然我想,试着,尽力去当一个不讲是非的人,但我还是失败了
可能十年后,二十年后,或者三十年后的某天,我会是个不讲是非的人
但现在的我,绝对不是的

有句话说,“看到别人的缺点就是自己修养不够”
那我的修养真得还满虚伪的
记得前一阵子我已经满成功减少讲别人的是非了
我还以为我慢慢成功改变自己了
只是没想到当时我只是逃避,当只鸵鸟而已
压抑在心中的全部话终于压抑不住了
很多话对在心理,讲又不是,不讲也不是。。。。
好纳闷
真希望可以有个箱子可以把我心中的话全都放在那里
我知道当我再讲人的时候,别人也是在讲我
所以我尽量不讲别人(虽然这样不会制止别人讲我)
等吧,等到哪天我到了置身于云外,修养很高的人时可能就不会那么痛苦吧
但,会有那么一天吗???
因为真真最高的境界就是完全不会看到别人的缺点
这样就完全不会想讲别人了
这,可能发生吗???

做自己???
世界上会有几个人完完全全的做自己???
记得看过一个报导,
有个游戏 - 在一天内完全不撒谎,不讲骗话,只说实话,
你敢挑战吗??
我还满想的
只是在游戏中的我真的会是一个 100%诚实,100%不讲骗话, 100%最自己 的人吗???

之前有人问我,有必要把人生搞得那么困难吗??
我顿时愣了一会儿, 有必要吗??
我不懂
可能这只是一个门槛,过了海就成仙了
我不是想当仙
我只想。。。。。
只想做个好人

P/s:
好纳闷~~~~
只是想抒发情绪而已~~~~
只是明天醒来,还是失败的我吗??

2008年11月16日星期日

weekend in penang and ipoh

must be weird rite??
juz say said finish holiday n get bec 2 melacca how can i sopent my weekend in penang moreover ipoh

the story start like tis:
mom:
ur jpa form reach adee, u need 2 cum bec 2 sign and sent it bec.

me:
ok, i will cum bec at thursday nite.... and reach at fri morning.

p/s:
translate frm chinese
of course, i din speak english vif my mum

then how can i be in ipoh???

(on phone)
3rd uncle:
ei??? jian quan??? (my chinese name)
ni3 hui2 lai2 le4 ?? (u cum bec dee??)
ni3 wei4 shen2 me4 hui2 lai2?? (why u cum bec)

me:
erm.........
.........................................(story begin)...........................
...........................(explaining)..........................................
........................................................................................

3rd uncle:
ni3 yao4 bu4 yao4 qu4 yi2 bao3 he4 xi3 jiu3?? (then do u wana go ipoh for weeding dinner)
ba1 sh14 hai2 you3 wei4(bus stil have extra seat)

me:
kan4 xian1 la4 (c 1st lar)

3rd uncle:
qu3 la4 (golar)
.........................................(persuading me)......................
...........................(persuading me).................................... ........................................................................................
qu3 la4 (golar)

me:
(finally)ok, wo3 qu4 la1 (ok, i go)

p/s:
translate frm chinese
2 prove v really speak in chinese, i write in han3 yu3 pin4 yin1
haha

c?? tat why i go ipoh

oya~~~~
my sis brought a spec, i took sum foto vif it






dark version





att loo zhenli:
u can grab 1 for the caller picture

o ya~~~
i maybe going bec 2 penang again soon, if..... if.... i have chicken pox


2008年11月9日星期日

Holiday + ed ==>last holiday.....






those who noe me very well will noe i less take my foto on my own 1 (zi pai), but i juz wana take foto to prove how long my hair was....
haha......
however, tis hair is no more liao coz i cut deee
juz a day be4 i bec melaca....
my hairstyle nw quite short......
but i oso like it
if i still so thick face i will capture my new hairstyle picture and share...
haha....

MOVIE - HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3
tis holiday i watch a damn nice movie.....
high school musical 3
thanks 2 joajoa n jojo n jenjen
J~~J~~J~~J~~ go c movie again
they introduce this nice movie 2 me
expecially joajoa, she even lend me hsm 1 & 2 for me
but i am so sorry 2 them i hav less tim 2 gather with them
Joaoa~~Jojo~~Jenjen~~
thanks for spending your time with me!!
(but wat a suprise i met DIDI (coursemate) in sunway karnival )

HOSPITAL - GRANDMA
grandma suddenly get into hospital
and we get a very bad news:
her cancer spread from lungs to her brain adee
doctor said she may attack of cancer anytime
v so sad she maybe leaving us anytim
i now have two wishes:
1.)she wont suffer from her cancer
2.)she can at least celebrate this cuming new year and hav my aunt from U.S.A